I've had this for a long time and am beginning to take meds for it and really just wanted to talk to someone that's either experienced or gotten through this shit.

thanks.

6/13/2007 7:51:33 PM

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"Depersonalization Disorder (DPD) is a dissociative disorder in which sufferers are affected by persistent feelings of depersonalization. The symptoms include a sense of automation, feeling a disconnection from one's body, and difficulty relating oneself to reality. It is often associated as a comorbid disorder of anxiety disorders, panic disorders, clinical depression, and/or bipolar disorder. Occasional moments of depersonalization are normal, but a persistent feeling is not. Brief periods of depersonalization are notably engendered by stress, a lack of sleep, or a combination. It becomes a disorder when the dissociation interferes with the social and occupational functions necessary to everyday living. Often a victim of DPD feels as if he or she is going insane, though this is almost never the case. Anxiety disorders are often linked to depersonalization, because anxiety can sometimes lead to DPD. In addition, DPD can cause anxiety since the person feels abnormal and uneasy at the loss of their sense of self. Reality testing will remain intact during an episode of depersonalization, meaning that a person suffering from the disorder will be able to respond to questions and interact with his or her environment. This fact can be distressing for those with DPD; the friends and family of the victim do not realise that anything is wrong, because one with DPD will normally not be visibly distraught. Depersonalization disorder often begins in the late teens or early twenties and usually resolves itself by age 30. While a nuisance, and very distressing to the patient, people with depersonalization disorder represent no risk to society, since their grasp on reality remains intact."

6/13/2007 8:41:31 PM

I definitely have a sense of automation at times... every day when I go to work. I also sometimes find difficulty relating my thoughts to reality.

But seriously, I've never understood this disorder. The symptoms have never been clear to me.

Horrorshow, can you shed some light?

6/13/2007 9:14:20 PM

^

6/13/2007 10:46:03 PM

Does Not Compute

6/14/2007 12:05:03 AM

the feeling of automation is like you're literally "telling" (like mental speaking) your body what to do, which can feel like you're outside your body, so your eyes can't seem to focus on one thing because you keep questioning why things look different or you feel like you're invisible. it's neurological, but also psychosomatic in that it's a lot like trauma.

6/14/2007 4:13:46 PM

one time at Heathrow I had connectile dysfunction

6/14/2007 4:47:58 PM

hmmmm Ive had feelings kind of like that in the past.

Where like, Ill be driving and I feel like my mind and my body are not really connected, and Im not sure whether Im in a dream or reality, then Ill think to myself, Im going fucking crazy. I can still talk to people on a normal plain however. Maybe I need to look into this too.

6/14/2007 11:52:41 PM

I have felt this way, but it was when I was high.

6/15/2007 12:02:41 AM

they can't fool me. wearing human faces. they're nothing but resonance
frequencies escaping the grasp of my mind.
waveforms are spinning out of control.
leaking into parallel dimensions. my mind is turned inside out.
exteriorized mind. (perceptually overstimulated.) my insides are pouring
out.
bombardment from outside. (which is now my inside.)
unearthly thought waves overcharge my brain circuits.


not lost. but gone before.
deposited at the brink of time. across the borders of infinity.
atomized state. crystalized existence. linear-time ignored.
indescent wings take me home.
from within john wheelers hyperspace.
the secret disclosed. neither body nor radiation.
vanished to outside observers. those poor souls left behind.

6/15/2007 12:06:50 AM

http://www.psychforums.com/viewforum.php?f=151 might be of use

6/15/2007 7:26:05 PM

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"I have felt this way, but it was when I was high. "

6/15/2007 8:27:20 PM

is this when you're sort of seperated from yourself, but still altogether at the same time, kind of like you're looking down on yourself doing all these things but not really there, like its someone else doing it, going through the motions and you're disconnected but still connected at the same time?

6/16/2007 12:55:35 AM

Do you genuinely believe you suffer from DPD, horrorshow? Folks in the psych arena are sometimes quick to diagnose and often wrong. Even when you exhibit all the symptoms, it could just be "who you are" or maybe a phase.

Either way, I suggest you ignore the diagnosis and "get through it" by concentrating on the symptoms that are unique to you. Don't waste your time with talking about and thinking about the DPD. Cause sometimes the person follows the diagnosis when it should be the other way around. Avoid it!

[Edited on June 16, 2007 at 2:04 AM. Reason : sss]

6/16/2007 2:03:29 AM

so, i wonder what it would be like for a person with DPD to take Ketamine...

6/16/2007 4:33:34 AM

BridgetSPK has come to the rescue, thank god.

6/16/2007 1:33:50 PM

^^^Wow, he has DPD (for a long time in fact), is already taking medicine for it, and wants to find people who have first-hand experience with it. Did you not read any of this? Really?

horrorshow: I would like to apologize for SourPatchin's post on behalf of TWW, the USA, Homo sapiens, and the entire animal kingdom.

[Edited on June 16, 2007 at 1:39 PM. Reason : c]

6/16/2007 1:39:21 PM

thank you, turnip. i am taking meds for it now

6/16/2007 3:37:44 PM

What about Asperger's syndrome? Anybody with that or maybe hints of it?

6/16/2007 3:44:54 PM

Turnip, you should check horrorshow's post history. I remember reading a thread of his not too long ago where he talked about how he thought he had severe panic disorder and DID. Now he's on to DPD. I'm just saying that you don't have to buy in to the diagnosis to get help. And I warn folks against embracing a diagnosis too quickly.

If I stay up too late and let myself get exhausted, I start to talk to people who aren't there with me. And I get so caught up in our conversations that I don't want to go to bed. And, yeah, it does interfere with my "occupational functions" cause I have trouble waking up the next day to go to class cause I've been talking to imaginary people all night. These people are fleshed out characters with developing personalities that I've gotten to know over time as we share conversations every once in a while.

I would never dream of taking medication for it or any of the other weird shit I do. And I don't think there's anything wrong with having a vivid imagination and an occasional lack of interest in the real world (it's pretty fucking boring)...

[Edited on June 16, 2007 at 4:58 PM. Reason : sss]

6/16/2007 4:57:57 PM

^ok fair enough, I didn't know you have a history with reading horrorshow's posts. I also have issues I don't seek treatment for, mainly because treatment would be used to make me "a more productive member of society," something that does not interest me.

6/16/2007 5:39:15 PM

my diagnosis has taken some time. i'd go into this into detail, but i don't really give a fuck what i've been through. i really just wanted to talk to someone that may have had it for a while and got over it.

6/16/2007 9:28:36 PM

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"If I stay up too late and let myself get exhausted, I start to talk to people who aren't there with me. And I get so caught up in our conversations that I don't want to go to bed. And, yeah, it does interfere with my "occupational functions" cause I have trouble waking up the next day to go to class cause I've been talking to imaginary people all night. These people are fleshed out characters with developing personalities that I've gotten to know over time as we share conversations every once in a while."

See, that isn't normal. In fact, that means there's something wrong with you. Either you're just an attention whore, which is entirely possible, or you're choosing to ignore some problems that you have. Either way, you don't seem like the type that should be giving psychological advice to anyone.

[Edited on June 16, 2007 at 9:35 PM. Reason : ]

6/16/2007 9:34:36 PM

ummm... yeah, i was looking for this one thread that I, uh...

well, i see this isn't it, so I must be in the wrong place.

no, no, I can find my way out. thanks


[backs away slowly]







[Edited on June 17, 2007 at 2:52 AM. Reason : ]

6/17/2007 2:49:48 AM

I have conversations with imaginary people but im normal.

6/17/2007 3:12:12 AM

i feel bad for not giving a reply. just wanted to know if anyone here has ever heard themselves thinking and didn't recognize that or their body as their own.

and also has no emotions...no happy, no sad, just nothing. (no emo)

[Edited on June 20, 2007 at 8:53 PM. Reason : .]

6/20/2007 8:47:24 PM

Don't people do drugs just to get this sort of effect?

6/21/2007 1:24:03 PM

yes they do

ritalin ftw

6/21/2007 1:25:32 PM

^^^yes to all of that.

6/21/2007 1:55:38 PM

^^ Actually I was referring to the whole out of body experience thing, not the no emotions thing.

6/22/2007 4:35:06 PM