http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P220908&shouldPaginate=true&categoryId=4348

This stuff smells JUST. LIKE. my grandmother's old kitchen (the house before their final one).

Instant tears.
She died of breast cancer...there's a breast cancer event @ my work today. I can't stop crying.

5/2/2010 9:44:21 AM

my mom told me she has breast cancer on friday. Most days its hard to get by at work and school without crying.

5/2/2010 9:46:10 AM

^I'm sorry to hear that about your Mother. I was my Grama's wingman for her breast cancer, went to every chemo, and surgery and wig shopping. It's hard, really hard. But we found ways to make it fun. We brought in coolers of fun food and spent the morning watching reruns of Get Smart.

There have been huge developments, and the odds are getting better. My Grama has been in remission for eight years now, and when she found out, they didn't think she would make it through. Don't lose hope

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5/2/2010 10:26:32 AM

^^Oh, honey. ♥

5/2/2010 11:09:55 AM

^^^ I've embraced crying in the bathroom and telling people that I have a cold. My mom is going through round 5? 6? for thyroid cancer and she told me right before a big event that I had going on with friends. I spent most of the evening getting drunk and then drunkenly crying in my boyfriend's bathroom afterward

Many many hugs from me, if you want to grab a drink to talk about it then I'm all ears.

5/2/2010 11:13:15 AM

Thanks. I know there are not to many serious moments in chit chat, but I really appreciate your kind words.

5/2/2010 11:22:36 AM

I, too, can relate... my dad had acute myelogenous leukemia for a year and amazingly lived. I know it's hard to think of at this point, but survival is possible and just try to keep that in sight. Like I just said, it can be hard to keep thinking that... My dad was on his death bed pretty much - they had the minister come in and everything to read him his last rights. Then, somehow, he pulled through.

>----------< e-hugs for everyone on this page

5/2/2010 12:49:04 PM

i pretty just pmed you the same think miska posted here. my mom had AML (leukemia) last year and needless to say it did not end well but i can totally relate to what you are going through.

so i'm also here for the cancer support group - we really should meet up for a drink or coffee sometime so that we can all be supportive of you (and misha!). that is something i wish i had last year.

seriously. i'm not even joking. if you want to talk i'm down. and even if you don't i'm probably going to stalk you now and ask you if you need anything like 700 times. so be warned

but really i'm so sorry to hear that news (and misha's too).

LOTS OF HUGS for you all.

_______________________________________

i just need to rant about sizing. ugh. i'm wearing an XS top right now that makes my boobs huge but its like SUPER tight. so then when i ordered shit from old navy a few weeks ago i got those foldover jersey skirts in a small (cause i've gained weight) and they're GIANT. like what the fuck sizing. i do think old navy and banana do hardcore vanity sizing though. but still i never know my goddamned size. /rant

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5/2/2010 3:00:42 PM

^ our parents had the same thing...


I would be all for a support group

5/2/2010 3:47:19 PM

me too i'm not even joking!!! we should totally all do it

how long has your dad been in remission? where was he treated?

i'm doing team in training (i know i've said this like a thousand times but this time i really am haha) this summer for the raleigh city of oaks 1/2 marathon in nov or whenever it is. i really want to get involved with the leukemia and lymphoma society cause they really provided a lot of support for my family.

5/2/2010 5:05:50 PM

he has been in remission forrrr.... 12, 13 years I think? He was treated at Pitt Memorial. He got really sick one week and finally my mom made him go to the doctor because he couldn't keep anything down. They get to the doctor who after some quick blood tests told him if wasn't air lifted to Pitt immediately he would have serious problems and would probably die. Then he spent 1 year at Pitt.

5/2/2010 6:44:33 PM

^ oh wow so a really long time so he is like considered cured or whatever. that is super amazing and really really awesome.

ok hay i'm back with some regular conversation topics. clothes not cancer! though i am serious about meeting up to talk if anyone else wanted to!

THEN today i went to target and got some stuff. i got a dress i think i'm going to wear to my graduation - it is super simple but i think with cute peep toe heels or wedges and some dressier jewelry i can dress it up:

(it has smocking like in the middle of it - its just super light cause no one is really going to see it anyway under gowns and its going to be hot so)

then i got two tops that i think will look cute with jeans and sandals just casual shit:


this picture really doesn't do the top justice. its a LOT cuter than it looks here. its really flowy and has beading on the neck line and straps and its longer on me than the model. and i wouldn't wear it with whatever the model is wearing it with cause it is pretty wide and flowy it doesn't really go with a flowy skirt. but whatever its cute on and in person:


AND THEN i was in DIRE need of gold sandals cause my dog ate my sandals from target last year that i fucking LOVED and i haven't been able to find a pair similar to them ANYWHERE this year. i just hate everything i've seen. i got an $8 pair of old navy gold flipflops but they give me blisters so i got these at target - on sale for $12. they have other colors but all the good ones were sold out. i mean these will do for now, i like the strap style not crazy about the color or ruffle but its better than nothing:


AND now i'm pretty much done shopping until like july haha. cause i got too much today. oops.



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5/2/2010 6:54:15 PM

omg sort of obsessed with these. would they go with a black sundress? they'd look good with my robe cause its black and purple. i just want them want want want. they are expensive



OMG they have them in offwhite/light pinky which would look cute with black i feel like:


and i like these


but i'm getting distracted cause i don't know if a sandal is approp.

something like this is probably more appropriate. i just wish i could find a color besides black but i guess that is the best thing SIGH:


FERGIE!!!!
these aren't that expensive (not like seychelles) and they have them in this sand color and black. i like:


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5/2/2010 9:09:29 PM

Quote :

"i do think old navy and banana do hardcore vanity sizing though."

im going to call out ann taylor loft on this

last week i got 2 dresses

XS & 0

WAT

im like a 6, MAYBE a 4, usually a medium, sometimes a small. insane vanity sizing happening at ann taylor!

5/2/2010 11:15:10 PM

After trying on/wearing a wedding dress (which goes by the traditional measuring) I utterly despise vanity sizing

5/2/2010 11:19:25 PM

thats how i feel there's NO REASON i shouldn't be a small. like what the fuck to people smaller than me do if i'm wearing an XS?? good grief. and at banana like all of the XS dresses are way too big on me. i guess XXS exists some places but that is just dumb!

anyway what do you ladies think of these bridesmaids dresses? i have no idea who these pics are up - the album had a friend tagged in it and popped up in my newsfeed so i started looking at all the pics. i actually think the dresses are cute and if i was a bridesmaid i'd be like "hell yea something not ugly" but if i was a bride i don't think i'd want my biatches in such a light colored/whiteish dress. i mean obviously its up to the bride though i just thought they were interesting:



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5/2/2010 11:19:34 PM

Pretty

and re: white/light dresses, superstition was bridesmaids wore white too to confuse demons that might cast evil over the marriage over who the bride actually was

5/2/2010 11:28:07 PM

^ haha didn't know that

yea i thought they were kinda cool too. no idea who that girl is or the people in the picture but i like. clearly i like to look at other people's wedding pictures and judge. oh well. its a hobby what can i say.

5/2/2010 11:34:24 PM

i dont like them, they look cheap to me

5/3/2010 12:24:35 AM

Same here. I think it's the silver/white combo

5/3/2010 12:27:31 AM

yea the silver does make them look cheap-y. like a costume or something. i really like the cut though.

5/3/2010 1:15:14 AM

this is what I'm doing for bridesmaid dresses:



that way errbody's happy and they don't drop a ton of cash.. and they'll wear it again


while those white/silver ones are pretty... I can't see many people wearing something like that again ya know



ps, kadwackle: he's not necessarily "cured"... they said he will never get AML again BUT since he went through that something about his treatment could cause other cancers to pop up later in life
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[Edited on May 3, 2010 at 10:03 AM. Reason : .]

5/3/2010 10:00:36 AM

^ my friend just did the same thing for her wedding. it came out really good.

5/3/2010 10:05:13 AM

^I really like those dresses and that combination.

5/3/2010 10:05:18 AM

Wolfy I totally bought this dress a few weekends ago.... lurve it



**disclaimer this is not me in the dress.....

5/3/2010 10:07:23 AM

I'm excited... especially because I, too, am having them wear green - that array of colors is so pretty!!!

5/3/2010 10:23:32 AM

Hey did you end up having the swap this weekend? If so, how did it go?

I am having one this Saturday evening if anyone wants in... (Send me your E-mail and I will send you the evite) I have A LOT of stuff to get rid of. Now that I am making my own jewelry - I don't wear my store-bought jewelry a lot. Ack.

5/3/2010 11:06:52 AM

lunak- awesome!! i love it, so bright and fun

have you had a chance to wear it out yet?

5/3/2010 11:11:32 AM

wore it for my sister's bday last week - and i'm wearing it at work right now

5/3/2010 11:12:18 AM

to work?? where do you work?

are you wearing a cardigan or anything? i could never wear anything that bright to work, i'd get made fun of

stupid boys

5/3/2010 11:15:07 AM

I work in political consulting, kinda doing my own thing. Pretty much wear whatever I want.

i wore this the other day

5/3/2010 11:21:58 AM

the swap went pretty well, I think everyone got some nice stuff but we all had lots left over



I just ordered this

5/3/2010 11:31:22 AM

the top looks like it has great support, until i saw the back

its super cute dont get me wrong, im just trying to imagine myself in it and the back seems like it would dig in hardcore

do post how it works out, i'd be interested to hear how comfortable it is

5/3/2010 11:41:25 AM

well I read the reviews before ordering because I thought the same thing... it's specifically a D/DD cup top and a bunch of the reviews said it worked out great, fit true to size, etc.

I'm kinda used to the digging in thing due to bras (I'm sure you and other big boob ladies can feel my pain when I say I have indentions on my shoulders from how heavy they are)... hopefully it'll work out though

PLUS, it's a Body Glove and I would hope they have hardcore stuff since they sell a lot of wetsuits, surfing gear, etc, ya know?

5/3/2010 11:44:44 AM

who sells great sexy dresses for a size 12?

5/3/2010 11:45:33 AM

^ occasion?

5/3/2010 11:47:31 AM

I have that lace up corset back dress if you want to borrow it

It always gets positive reviews haha

I got this one from Express:

5/3/2010 11:50:16 AM

don't have one. Went to dinner saturday and realized I need something nice that I feel hot in

5/3/2010 11:50:55 AM

haha fair enough.

banana always has some awesome cocktail dresses type thing - and nordstroms has some great stuff too.

nordstroms is where i found this awesome dress:

5/3/2010 11:54:24 AM

Adam's Vineyards & Winery is having their second annual Fashionistas Shopping Spree this Thurday.

3390 John Adams Road
Willow Spring, NC 27592

http://www.adamsvineyards.com/

According to the website:

Join area ladies for a night filled with fun, wine and laughter! Enjoy a little "me" time with friends shopping for the latest trends in purses, jewelry, clothing, home decor, food, kitchen accessories, and much more. Treat yourself with samples of Adams Vineyards wines in the tasting room. Hosted at Adams Vineyards and Winery off Hwy 42 in Willow Springs, between Fuquay-Varina and Clayton. Admission is FREE.

Vendors: Scentsy, Tastefully Simple, Silpada, Pampered Chef, Homemade Gourmet, Bead Jewelry, Jazzy Girl, Home Interiors, Clothing and accessories and many more.

5/3/2010 2:51:13 PM

Sam....that bathing suit is sooooooo cute. I wish I could wear two pieces like that again. /complaining about having a kid and not being satisfied with my body

5/3/2010 2:54:20 PM

Quote :

"I'm kinda used to the digging in thing due to bras (I'm sure you and other big boob ladies can feel my pain when I say I have indentions on my shoulders from how heavy they are)."

If you have that problem, you probably need a smaller band size so that your shoulders aren't given the burden of support. My back feels so much better from going down a band size and up in the cup.

5/3/2010 4:25:57 PM

^well, if that is true, I don't know where to buy my bras.

I am currently a 36DD

I have been spilling out lately.

5/3/2010 4:27:35 PM

^

5/3/2010 4:31:29 PM

Quote :

"If you have that problem, you probably need a smaller band size so that your shoulders aren't given the burden of support. My back feels so much better from going down a band size and up in the cup."

Hmm... I never thought of it that way... but would that mean I would need to go to like a 34DD? :\ I normally fall between D/DD (but mainly D) and get a 36

5/3/2010 4:36:10 PM

Quote :

"ps, kadwackle: he's not necessarily "cured"... they said he will never get AML again BUT since he went through that something about his treatment could cause other cancers to pop up later in life "

yea i guess cured was the wrong word oopsy. but yes a lot of cancer treatments CAUSE cancer. did he do chemo or radiation? both? yea all of that shit can cause other cancers. i hope that he doesn't end up with anything! 12 - 13 years cancer free is a LONG time though that is a really amazing thing

5/3/2010 4:41:31 PM

ha....God.

I am serious. I don't know where to buy bras. VS used to be the place I went but their bras don't fit correctly anymore and I am afraid I am going to have to buy a bra that is 80 dollar bucks but that means I could only buy one and who wears one bra ALL THE TIME? I usually double up my bras [regular bra + sports bra/bra cami]. I would like to try tartsquids advice.

Any places in charlotte, possibly Raleigh that have bigger than DD?

5/3/2010 4:41:36 PM

Go to Nordstrom and get properly measured. That's where my girlfriend went.

5/3/2010 4:43:48 PM

^2 There is a place right down the road from my work, on Wake Forest Rd... I can't remember the name but my sister goes there and absolutely loves it because of the selection they have (and she wears like a JJ I think )

^3 I think he did both... He actually got AML due to a combo of radiation and stress

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5/3/2010 4:45:25 PM

honestly God is right - i went there to get measured for my corset, and she was super awesome and nice. didn't even buy a bra. still measured me

^ and Jen posted somewhere in here that she loves

5/3/2010 4:46:21 PM