I wish my apartment would clean itself. When my parents visit on Wednesday, my mother is just going to nitpick this place apart.

11/24/2009 12:14:18 AM

oh god, thats the worst...

My parents are... messy, they tend not to judge.... I'm sorry you gotta deal with that

11/24/2009 12:15:00 AM

the last couple of days have just been one hell of a clusterfuck. Most likely breaking up with gf after being together a year and a half. And it's not pretty.

Any of you have major guilt complexes over shit like this?

11/24/2009 12:19:27 AM

why did you break up with her?

or was it mutual?

11/24/2009 12:20:00 AM

well it ain't final...but likely will be. I don't know whether to call it mutual or not. I guess a lot of it boils down to how we think...we are both very different. she holds on to her anger, fears, anxieties.

That and she has gotten very upset about me occasionally groping her in my sleep. Says I have perfect control over it...but why would I consciously do something like that if I know the outcome?

And then there's the house that hasn't gotten fixed up, though she's not done much at all to help or to facilitate. And then there's her two cars that haven't gotten sold because I haven't done it for her.

11/24/2009 12:25:01 AM

don't feel guilty, just move on

18 months is about how long it takes to know the real person

i see it like this, the first 6 months is like infatuation

the first year may even be a front

but by the 1.5 yr mark, you'll truly see how your partner feels

11/24/2009 12:28:45 AM

we've been dating 4 years and sometimes i hold in my anger and anxiety

oh wait no that is wrong

i think my problem is the LACK of holding it in

don't know which is worse though. anyway i kinda agree with ^

11/24/2009 12:29:57 AM

well, Jeepman put one thing perfectly tonight...when he said that she was just plain unmotivated.

I can be a pretty motivational person, and have been before, but after finally living with her for a year, I've come to the conclusion I just cannot take this any more. I've given up plenty to be with her and for her. And plenty of things I don't want to admit here because I'll totally get called out as a fucking pushover and just sad.

11/24/2009 12:33:48 AM

I <3 this new Beach House album

11/24/2009 12:35:04 AM

come on ibuprofen.... GET TO WORK

11/24/2009 12:35:28 AM

What's wrong with groping your gf while asleep?

11/24/2009 12:39:18 AM

^ I'm not sure. Unless I'm ill or something else physically wrong with me, I have no problems with groping.

11/24/2009 12:41:14 AM

^^

[Edited on November 24, 2009 at 12:41 AM. Reason : asg]

11/24/2009 12:41:24 AM

you tell me. Is it?

Never was a problem in the past. Didn't do it much if at all in the past either because I was actually getting it or the woman would initiate it.

Guess she didn't like my hand on her cooch.

11/24/2009 12:41:29 AM

I'm drunk

11/24/2009 12:43:04 AM

I think I'd be more upset if I didn't get groped

11/24/2009 12:43:16 AM

I say move on. I learned that no matter what giving up part of who you are (not the silly stuff) isn't worth the relationship.

No matter how much you care about the other person.

11/24/2009 12:43:51 AM

^^^^sounds like she gave up on the relationship a long time ago for whatever reason and is just too scared / lazy to move on or do anything about it


just move on and don't look back, too many women out there

[Edited on November 24, 2009 at 12:45 AM. Reason : carat]

11/24/2009 12:44:32 AM

Yeah. Holding on because of how it used to be is a recipe for misery.

11/24/2009 12:45:44 AM

^ troof

11/24/2009 12:46:23 AM

dry nostrils

cannot locate humidifier



OUCH

11/24/2009 12:46:38 AM

Yeah, I think I'll agree with that. She's definitely lazy and chickenshit. And I think Ray's right. You are all right.

I should have ditched her long ago...

11/24/2009 12:48:28 AM

I was so stupid for waiting until tonight to start this project.

When will I EVER LEARN! putting things off until the last minute is not a good way to go!

11/24/2009 12:48:45 AM

i've been there

it's much easier to spot when you are on the outside looking in though

11/24/2009 12:50:43 AM

yeah, you're right. Easier when it's somebody else. I've been there too, and looking back, this one was so much like one I dated 12 years ago and ditched. Same bad attitude.

11/24/2009 12:53:06 AM

im thinking about my good friend h8r

11/24/2009 12:53:44 AM

i'll be in rawley tomorrow

11/24/2009 12:55:53 AM

where do you currently live?

we going to play some baskeetball?

11/24/2009 12:59:08 AM

thats what you call bitchassness

11/24/2009 1:00:42 AM

currently, still in New Bern, 2.5 hours from Raleigh

but i have a few appointments in Raleigh tomorrow

I'll play at Lifetime Fitness in Cary when i make it back to residing there

11/24/2009 1:02:45 AM

damn, i might switch gyms for that

11/24/2009 1:05:31 AM

w3rd

11/24/2009 1:06:19 AM

wait, you moved back to da Bern? dude, i'm so sorry!

11/24/2009 1:07:20 AM

i know, right.

it's depressing.

11/24/2009 1:11:37 AM

I'm so dumb, I'm so dumb, I'm so dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb

11/24/2009 1:11:53 AM

Ray this gym looks expensive

[Edited on November 24, 2009 at 1:14 AM. Reason : sensored myself]

11/24/2009 1:13:57 AM

I know I'm harping on this shit, but what the fuck. Time to go to sleep in a strange bed in a house that's not home. thank god for good buddies.

G'nite TWW.

11/24/2009 1:22:25 AM

^^well, it's 24 hours, 3 pools, 2 full basketball courts where you can pretty much get in a game up until midnight or later almost 6 nights a week, volleyball 4 nights a week, raquetball, spin classes, free weights, machines, pretty good security and cameras too ....

worth it to me


^night man, keep your head up, it only gets better

[Edited on November 24, 2009 at 1:23 AM. Reason : carat]

11/24/2009 1:22:48 AM

well I have the song I'm going to audition with

11/24/2009 1:32:27 AM

New Bern is 2 hours from Raleigh, I've lived there as well . Place is a shit hole.

--

That'll do for this study session. Hopefully I can cram in making the pchem cheat sheet after the test, I just want to sleep now.

11/24/2009 1:36:30 AM

^ We know it's a shithole, Peter, we know.

11/24/2009 1:39:41 AM

it's not as crappy as Havelock is.

11/24/2009 1:50:04 AM

Havenot, you mean.

11/24/2009 1:51:07 AM

EXACTLY!

Down town New Bern is pretty though. I was just there Saturday night.

AB is where it's at! At least that's where I'm at!

11/24/2009 1:53:10 AM

Having lived there for 18 years, I can say this with some level of honesty... New Bern: great place to visit, but you wouldn't want to live there.

11/24/2009 1:55:25 AM

:-|

11/24/2009 2:24:17 AM

I'M DONE I'M DONE I'M DONE I'M DONE

Now I can go to sleep.

11/24/2009 2:26:10 AM

i'm 3 cents short of being able to buy a cup of coffee...


and i really need it

11/24/2009 2:27:18 AM

WOW

crazy end

11/24/2009 2:27:26 AM

yay...she gave me the coffee for free

11/24/2009 3:43:35 AM