bbehe Burn it all down. 18402 Posts user info edit post |
Can someone explain to me what this is? 10/21/2014 6:28:45 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
A bunch of children bitching at each other on twitter about nothing. Both sides of this debate are ridiculous. 10/21/2014 6:31:08 PM |
vinylbandit All American 48079 Posts user info edit post |
I wouldn't call pointing out the pervasive misogyny in video games "ridiculous." 10/21/2014 6:50:34 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
There are valid points to be made on both sides of the debate, but the way it's played out has been ridiculous. 10/21/2014 6:55:52 PM |
vinylbandit All American 48079 Posts user info edit post |
The only point that the GGers have is that sometimes journalists can be biased, which has absolutely nothing to do with gaming and everything to do with the fact that journalists are human. 10/21/2014 7:02:09 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
And the main point of anti GGers is that a lot of people on the internet and twitter are terrible, which has absolutely nothing to do with gaming and everything to do with anonymous/troll culture on the internet. 10/21/2014 7:08:04 PM |
bbehe Burn it all down. 18402 Posts user info edit post |
What are the two sides? 10/21/2014 7:10:26 PM |
justinh524 Sprots Talk Mod 27840 Posts user info edit post |
I also have no clue what this is about, and I'm beginning to think it's an argument about nothing. 10/21/2014 7:11:42 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
Hard to explain since neither side is unified in either goals or motivations.
It's like OWS all over again, except exclusively on the internet this time. 10/21/2014 7:13:37 PM |
rjrumfel All American 23027 Posts user info edit post |
Is it that women gamers are complaining about the way women are treated in video games? I'm not a huge gamer but the only one that comes to mind to be a big problem is GTAX. I guess Red Dead Redemption was kinda bad too, but there was also some strong female characters in that game. But I really don't game enough to know either side of the story.
Most gamers are guys and sex sells, so... 10/21/2014 7:14:32 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
there are a number of different things going on
1) Feminist critic Anita Sarkeesian has made a series of videos called "Tropes vs. Women," in which she examines video game tropes that portray women negatively, such as the huge prevalence of the death of a female character used to develop the character of/motivate the male protagonist, etc. etc. She's received numerous death threats from people who seemingly think she is trying to censor games or take their violent video games away. This is a patently false overreaction. She is not calling for an instant halt in the production of any games, she is just raising awareness of the potentially harmful attitudes toward women reinforced by videogames. She is presenting some things that she feels might be worth thinking about. She reiterates time and time again that it's possible to find value in and enjoy a game while still pointing out some of it's flaws, yet people still try to paint her as someone who doesn't even like games and as a feminist boogeywoman. Also, videogames obviously don't directly cause things like extreme violence and school shootings, as her detractors love to point out, but it is quite possible that they can affect something as subtle and subconscious as an attitude.
example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6p5AZp7r_Q&list=UU7Edgk9RxP7Fm7vjQ1d-cDA
and this is a talk she gave about the shit that's been thrown at her: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ah8mhDW6Shs
2) Indie Developer Zoe Quinn released a game a while back called Depression Quest, which a bunch of haters quickly decreed "Not a game," as it's a text-based thing that is about depression and not particularly "fun,"/does not contain guns or zombies. A bit later, an ex-boyfriend of hers posted a long rant accusing her of cheating on him with games industry people in exchange for favorable reviews for her game. This has been debunked, as no one she allegedly slept with has actually reviewed her game. So, they claim it's about "Ethics" in games journalism, when really it started as being about this developer's sex life, which some gamers disapproved of. If it was really about ethics in journalism, this movement would have started long, long ago when it was obvious that major games publishers were essentially paying games sites and magazines for favorable reviews. A tiny text adventure developer has no effect on the hardcore games industry at large. A major publisher's shitty game getting an inexplicable, payola 9.5 after gifting the reviewer an xbox and the game and early access to footage, etc. might. Anyway, people have been doxxing her and harassing her and her boyfriend for months.
interview yesterday: http://www.msnbc.com/ronan-farrow-daily/watch/exclusive--woman-who-sparked-gamergate-345327171549
3) A series of opinion pieces were written on sites like Gamasutra, musing that the "Gamer" stereotype is dead. These were actually pretty positive articles on how gaming has become ubiquitous and for everyone (equivalent to how a film writer long ago might have declared the "moviegoer" identity dead since everyone goes to the movies now), but a bunch of hardcore gamers seemed to not actually read the articles and take this as an insult and a threat. They launched campaigns of harassment against these bloggers, and bombarded their sponsors into pulling ads from the site. Which is pretty ironic of them, to decry censorship and tout free speech while attempting to silence any opinion different from their own.
4) A lot of gamergaters are calling for objective game reviews, which is completely ridiculous. reviews are opinions by nature. if gamers want games to be considered art, they have to be reviewed and criticized like other art and media is. otherwise, games are mere products and their reviews belong in Consumer Reports. Rather than use a little discernment and subscribe to a different website if they don't like a reviewer, they've been basically calling for the head of any writer they disagree with.
and there's a lot more.
anyway here's a nice roundup.
http://deadspin.com/the-future-of-the-culture-wars-is-here-and-its-gamerga-1646145844
and here's Chris Kluwe being rad
https://medium.com/the-cauldron/why-gamergaters-piss-me-the-f-off-a7e4c7f6d8a6
[Edited on October 21, 2014 at 8:38 PM. Reason : .] 10/21/2014 8:17:47 PM |
ShinAntonio Zinc Saucier 18947 Posts user info edit post |
My understanding from the bits and pieces I've read when it comes up is this:
Some ex-boyfriend of Zoe Quinn, a female game developer, accused her of sleeping with a games journalist (or possibly multiple journalists) to get positive coverage of her indie game, Depression Quest. Somehow this ignites a firestorm of controversy, despite the fact her game is free. Since a woman is involved, misogyny, rape threats, and death threats run rampant.
The initial allegations (as far as I can tell) were proven false. However, people are trying to change the focus to game journalists in general and how they're not trustworthy, since many of them are too friendly with the companies/developers they cover. Still, the vitriol and misogyny is still rampant and drowning any reasonable discourse. Also, Anita Sarkeesian releases another Tropes vs. Women video, which sends the shitheads into another frenzy. Eventually Anita and Zoe end up having to leave their homes due to threats and reportedly other women have left the industry because they became targets.
I'm still not sure why the whole thing is still going, all anyone talks about anymore is the rape and death threats. If GamerGaters want a real conversation about 'corruption', they need to try again at a later date.
*This is all based off stuff I've read from forum posters at various times it's come up.
EDIT: Dammit I typed all that up and Bweez summed it up pretty well.
I think this summary is pretty good: http://www.forbes.com/sites/erikkain/2014/09/04/gamergate-a-closer-look-at-the-controversy-sweeping-video-games/
[Edited on October 21, 2014 at 8:48 PM. Reason : .] 10/21/2014 8:27:56 PM |
rjrumfel All American 23027 Posts user info edit post |
Wow what a stupid stupid thing to get worked up over. 10/21/2014 8:43:36 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
@Bweez
1) Anita is this decade's Jack Thompson. http://gamesided.com/2014/09/08/sarkeesian-truth-part-1-straw-feminist-trojan-horse-censorship/
2) I don't really give a shit about Zoe Quinn, but you're glossing over things like the Wizardchan thing and The Fine Young Capitalists game jam. At the very least Quinn is a pretty shitty person. But the focus on her is a pretty big reason why much of GamerGate is stupid, yes.
3) "Gamer" is generally consiered short for "gaming enthusiast" not "person who plays a game." Whatever you want to call them, it's still an example of gaming sites demonizing their own audiences. Everyone might watch movies these days, but people who visit A.V. Club website and read Empire magazine are not the people who watch one movie on TNT every other weekend but the people who are movie enthusiasts.. Similarly, whether you want to call them "gamers" "hardcore gamers" or "misogynist neckbeard basement dwelling shitlords" the people who read games journalism are the ones who are willing to pay $50-60 for a game, not those who play 5 minutes of Kim Kardashian Hollywood and Candy Crush every day.
4) Mostly agree, but there's a point to be made that when you're assigning a numeric review things like fun gameplay and good mechanics trump things like positive gender message messaging. Not that there isn't a place for that, but probably not in the final score. Kind of like a movie that has a good message but poor acting and directing. 10/21/2014 10:16:08 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
1) You are truly delusional if you believe that. "Hey, lets think a tiny bit critically about tropes during some 20 minute youtube videos." is not remotely comparable to filing actual litigation and calling for actual government censorship. She wants games to be better for everyone by not defaulting to lazy writing so often. This does not even approach the same ballpark or sport as actual "censorship."
2) I don't buy that she's a shitty person at all. She had problems in a relationship but that is private and not relevant. I don't give a shit about the wizardchan thing. That's a he said/she said complete with some wonderful mspaint conspiracy theory drawings and pointless semantic arguments. TFYC thing is equally convoluted as fuck with multiple sides, ie http://imgur.com/a/KEtcp.
3) That's all well and good (not really [misogynist attitudes deserve criticism]), but Gamasutra is a gamedev blog. It's not even for the people who cried/lied to intel that they were its target audience. That piece was merely opining to other gamedevs that maybe they don't have to fall over themselves to only ONLY cater to the classic image of a "gamer" so much anymore. And this is all beside the point. These are editorials, opinion pieces. People who constantly deride "SJWs's" supposed misplaced outrage ad nauseum can't take 350 words of criticism? People so worried about "censorship" must squash all dissenting opinion?
4) "Final scores" are arbitrary, imaginary internet numbers. I get that people are upset about the whole metacritic, you get this pay raise if you get over an 86 bullshit incentive if that's even a real issue, but that is 100% on the development studios and publishers. If a writer wants to dock a game a half an imaginary point, or 6 imaginary points, for what he or she perceives to be too many gratuitous woman murders and you don't like this point dockage, use your brain and decide maybe this reviewer isn't for you. This is why there multiple reviewers. We didn't call for Roger Ebert's job when he refused to award The Human Centipede even zero stars. We could go read A.O. Scott's review, or whatever. Like, who are these people fighting for? Do they think the SJW opinions are going to poison their brains? Do they need to defend the poor, defenseless $million Hitman games from the opinion of one writer that might bring its all-important metatomatometer down .3 points? If games want to be art, they have to take serious criticism, which sometimes involves *gasp* feminist and social critique. "I feel that resorting to this damsel in distress trope was lazy writing/The camera swooshing and zooming in for better Bayonetta ass and tit shots seems awkward and unnecessary to me" is perfectly valid criticism. If a 16 year old male gamer thinks the camera swooshing and zooming in for better Bayonetta ass and tit shots sound rad and necessary then great, he can go play the game or go read a review that holds his hand and agrees with him if he must. He doesn't need to launch a fucking campaign to make AMD pull actual money from Polygon and its probably struggling, probably not-very-well-paid writers. Its negative framing in a review is not the end of the world for anyone or anything involved (except the reviewer, if some of #gg had their way). And a lot of people like reading viewpoints like this. Again, if we only review and critique mechanics and graphics then game reviews might as well be sequestered into Consumer Reports along with the latest fucking Roomba review.
/ramble
[Edited on October 21, 2014 at 11:21 PM. Reason : .] 10/21/2014 11:14:35 PM |
ndmetcal All American 9012 Posts user info edit post |
video game journalism is serious business 10/21/2014 11:18:13 PM |
Noen All American 31346 Posts user info edit post |
^^^You're falling into the conspiracy theory "we are the marginalized majority" trap.
^^Is dead on correct. The mental gymnastics required to even half-heartedly believe the theory of Gamergate is staggering.
I'll admit to being intrigued when the AnitaZ and Zoe stuff first came to light. But after looking at the guys leading the charge, it very very quickly went into tinfoil hat land. The reality is that "gamer culture" is extremely misogynist, racist, homophobic and juvenile. It's really, really sad that so many kids (guys and girls) are growing up thinking that "gamer speak" is appropriate and acceptable.
I was shocked at PAX this year with the insanely sexist language, attitudes and behavior of the teenage and young adult guys there. It was absolutely cringe-inducing. I know I wasn't (and probably still aren't) the most politically correct or feminist person in the world, but it's really really sad. 10/22/2014 12:07:39 AM |
vinylbandit All American 48079 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "At the very least Quinn is a pretty shitty person" |
Uhhhh...this is exactly the kind of casual misogyny that makes everyone roll their eyes at gamers who claim they're being persecuted for being misogynists.10/22/2014 12:21:04 AM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
^^ I'm actually not. I don't really care much about Gamergate's goals and I wish it was over so everyone would just move on. I only "defend" the "movement" when everyone lumps all gamers together.
^ What is misogynistic about that statement? If I said Mel Gibson is a shitty person would that be casual misandry?
@ Bweez, if you didn't notice on your #4 I said "mostly agree" so I don't disagree with that ramble at all. I didn't have a problem with that Bayonetta score that people were so upset about. My issue (and again, it's only a slight annoyance. Not something I would actually join a hashtag campaign over) is things like this:
http://www.polygon.com/2014/1/15/5311568/game-of-the-year-2013-gone-home
Gone Home is a nice way to spend a couple of hours sure, but game of the year? Like you said, it's not something to get worked up about and I can just go to a different site (which I do), but I might as well point out an annoyance when I see one.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 7:42 AM. Reason : ] 10/22/2014 7:40:31 AM |
Lokken All American 13361 Posts user info edit post |
you're a fool if you think this has to do with gaming at all. you're a fool if you think there is a 'right' side to any of this.
This entire shitstorm is just a platform for various peoples agendas. It is very much in the interest of everyone who is actually involved in this that it all continues as it has.
You're all eating this garbage up just like any of the mindless twats that watch E! or read the latest celebrity tabloid.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 9:02 AM. Reason : *] 10/22/2014 9:00:42 AM |
dyne All American 7323 Posts user info edit post |
iirc some nasty ass chick slept with some neckbeards so that they would write a favorable review of her shitty indie game on their websites. 10/22/2014 9:24:32 AM |
ViolentMAW All American 4127 Posts user info edit post |
Don't really care about this shit storm but I must admit I was slightly perturbed when I read that Bayonetta review. That's only because Platinum is my favorite studio and their games aren't appreciated enough. When I thought about it some more, I was glad someone decided to break out of the Graphics/Sound/Gameplay/Controls template (don't forget to mention the frame rate). Polygon's review could lead to a paradigm shift in game criticism. I also had to admit to myself that playing the game makes me feel weird and tingly in the pants so if someone out there doesn't like it then so be it.
Elizabeth wasn't even put on the cover of Bioshock Infinite. This was a bigger injustice in my opinion. Ignoring women altogether seems as worse or worse than over-sexualizing them. The publisher said it came down to a vote and we all know that's a bag of bullshit. Even if it was or wasn't a vote, this shows the prevalence of misogyny in gaming culture more than anything.
Men and women both need their sex/power fantasies. There will always be a place for this but yeah gaming culture totally blows right now.
vinylbandit
Are you a gamer? I'm not trying to say that your opinion on this is wrong because I agree with most of you but I haven't seen you post in many game threads. What games do you like? Just curious. 10/22/2014 10:07:12 AM |
spöokyjon ℵ 18617 Posts user info edit post |
A lot of people who aren't major gamers are following this, especially in the past week or two. I'm glad the toxic environment that's out there is finally getting some attention from the outside world. 10/22/2014 11:04:19 AM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
^^^^ You're a fool.
^^^^^ I don't see the problem with Gone Home being named game of the year (which is arbitrary) on one website. I literally don't see how this could possibly be a problem or an "issue." Are you worried this will trick some unsuspecting child - incapable of reading or looking at multiple sources - who only likes Gruff Space Marine Death Simulator 3000 into spending $6.74 on a humble bundle for a pack of games including one that might vaguely challenge his idea of what a "game" is and turn him lesbian? 10/22/2014 2:19:04 PM |
vinylbandit All American 48079 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "What is misogynistic about that statement? If I said Mel Gibson is a shitty person would that be casual misandry? " |
Mel Gibson has a recorded history of spousal abuse, antisemitism, and drunk driving.
Unless I'm missing something, Zoe Quinn might've cheated on a boyfriend?
That's a pretty big gap to compare the two, and an awful shaky base of evidence for calling Quinn a shitty person "at the very least."
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I wouldn't identify as a gamer. I play casually every once in a while, but the last game I really got absorbed in was Shadow of the Colossus.
Honestly, I don't have huge concerns about game content. It's worth talking about, and it's worth being aware of if you're a gamer or a developer, but in general I think that people should have free reign over content in art. With that said, they should also be ready to be accountable for the intent of said content.
My problem is the general attitude of misogyny in the industry (and in a lot of the tech industry in general), and the lack of self-awareness that leads to idiots feeling persecuted when someone calls them on their bullshit.10/22/2014 2:40:42 PM |
PaulISdead All American 8779 Posts user info edit post |
how many fedoras and ounces of mt. dew do you have in arms reach at this moment? 10/22/2014 2:47:11 PM |
dtownral Suspended 26632 Posts user info edit post |
m'lady 10/22/2014 3:22:28 PM |
Lokken All American 13361 Posts user info edit post |
Editing to remove; its not worth the discussion and I don't actually want to fight with others who enjoy games.
Ill just say that this entire situation is sad and upsetting because it is miring what is actually a great time in games.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 3:55 PM. Reason : *] 10/22/2014 3:44:34 PM |
Krallum 56A0D3 15294 Posts user info edit post |
girls suck ass at video games who gives a fugg
I'm Krallum and I approved this message. 10/22/2014 4:02:41 PM |
V0LC0M All American 21263 Posts user info edit post |
Can we get a mod to move this to Soap Box?!?!? 10/22/2014 4:05:01 PM |
Krallum 56A0D3 15294 Posts user info edit post |
Yeah a mod will get to it sometime before 2015
I'm Krallum and I approved this message. 10/22/2014 4:08:46 PM |
Jeepin4x4 #Pack9 35774 Posts user info edit post |
is there a need for this to move to SoapBox? you all seem to be doing just fine here. 10/22/2014 4:16:48 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
^^^^^I saw your pre-edit and don't agree with any of it but okay, getting into it is pretty pointless.
I agree that it's a great time for games in some ways, despite everything. 10/22/2014 4:31:56 PM |
Fry The Stubby 7784 Posts user info edit post |
i'm not a fan of overtly sexual/misogynistic games myself. but i don't let it bother me, i just go buy/play other games. wallets vote, and everybody's money is green.
it's the same reason i don't buy a playboy magazine. i very much appreciate the female figure, but as a married man i'm not morally okay with viewing/using these kinds of materials. it's perfectly within someone's right to write a blog/post a video/whatever criticizing these things that they find offensive. it's also logically within someone's right to enjoy them and be responsible for whatever consequences there might be.
why everybody gotta be mad? 10/22/2014 4:47:38 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "Mel Gibson has a recorded history of spousal abuse, antisemitism, and drunk driving.
Unless I'm missing something, Zoe Quinn might've cheated on a boyfriend?
That's a pretty big gap to compare the two, and an awful shaky base of evidence for calling Quinn a shitty person "at the very least." " |
I didn't even mention the cheating because I'm not that clear on the timeline (did she actually cheat on him or did she screw these guys while they were broken up?). That's not something I would care about unless I was looking to have a relationship with her. I'm calling her a shitty person because of things like shutting down a game jam directed at getting women into the gaming industry, and issuing false DMCA takedowns against people who are critical of her.
Quote : | "I don't see the problem with Gone Home being named game of the year (which is arbitrary) on one website. I literally don't see how this could possibly be a problem or an "issue." Are you worried this will trick some unsuspecting child - incapable of reading or looking at multiple sources - who only likes Gruff Space Marine Death Simulator 3000 into spending $6.74 on a humble bundle for a pack of games including one that might vaguely challenge his idea of what a "game" is and turn him lesbian?" |
I don't know where you came up with that scenario, but I was only saying that it's annoying that a glorified walking simulator wins game of the year. Games don't have to be generic gritty shooters to be great, but they should have good gameplay (which is the defining characteristic of the entertainment medium).
Portal 2 won game of the year from many outlets in 2011. It was a game with a non-sexualized female protagonist with no combat (although there was some action), but it had fantastic gameplay. Although it wasn't my personal game of 2011 (Skyrim) it was still a great game and deserved all the praise it got.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 8:12 PM. Reason : gone home winning best game is like a movie that's screen after screen of text winning best picture]10/22/2014 7:58:20 PM |
vinylbandit All American 48079 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "Games don't have to be generic gritty shooters to be great, but they should have good gameplay (which is the defining characteristic of the entertainment medium)." |
No, that's YOUR defining characteristic for your own personal entertainment. And that's great. But it's not the objective standard of quality.10/22/2014 8:17:53 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "gone home winning best game is like a movie that's screen after screen of text winning best picture" |
It's more like if a silent film had won best picture in 2011.
WAIT.
Quote : | "shutting down a game jam directed at getting women into the gaming industry" |
Reductive much?
Quote : | "I was only saying that it's annoying that a glorified walking simulator wins game of the year." |
So you're annoyed that one website doesn't agree with you about how good or not good or gamelike or not gamelike a single exploration/mystery game is
I don't think it's that crazy for a well executed, very original experimental game to win an imaginary award over, what, a bunch of sequels and Last of Us?
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 9:01 PM. Reason : .]10/22/2014 8:48:59 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
The Artist was well acted, well shot, and well directed. I don't understand the comparison. 10/22/2014 9:02:45 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
[it eschews what many consider a very important element of modern film]
Gone home was well acted, well designed, well written, and many people enjoyed playing it. I don't understand the comparison to screen after screen of text.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 9:13 PM. Reason : .] 10/22/2014 9:07:48 PM |
AndyMac All American 31922 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "Gone home was well acted, well designed, well written" |
That would be great if it was a movie, which it basically is.
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 9:13 PM. Reason : 30,000]10/22/2014 9:09:14 PM |
Bweez All American 10849 Posts user info edit post |
Most movies don't feature game design, as far as I know. 10/22/2014 9:17:05 PM |
Noen All American 31346 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "i'm not a fan of overtly sexual/misogynistic games myself. but i don't let it bother me, i just go buy/play other games. wallets vote, and everybody's money is green." |
This isn't the problem, which I think it part of Lokken's frustration. If you want to create a sexualized game, or stereotyped characters, or a game that presents itself as misogynist, or racist, or any other sort of discrimination, the point is to do it consciously.
The core issue, which I agree is being overwhelming missed, is people not being conscious about the decisions they're making. Overwhelmingly (at least in my experience with several game development studios) the problem is not with the developers or the development studios themselves. It's been much MUCH more an issue with Publishers, Marketing and PR which has created this viciously self-reinforcing cycle with the consumer.
Part of this is a broken system between software development and business (which is not at all a problem unique to gaming, it's rampant in pretty much every software market segment). But I think a bigger part is that Publishers are so risk averse, most of the big players aren't willing to risk a revenue loss to speak out against discriminatory behavior.10/22/2014 10:32:27 PM |
PaulISdead All American 8779 Posts user info edit post |
[Edited on October 22, 2014 at 11:09 PM. Reason : ...]
10/22/2014 11:03:28 PM |
Lokken All American 13361 Posts user info edit post |
Good post by Felicia Day.
http://thisfeliciaday.tumblr.com/post/100700417809/the-only-thing-i-have-to-say-about-gamer-gate
Quote : | "
I had a day off this weekend from shooting Supernatural, and I was walking around downtown Vancouver on Saturday, sampling all the artisan coffee I could get my throat around. At one point I saw a pair of guys walking towards me wearing gamer shirts. Black short-sleeved, one Halo and one Call of Duty.
Now in my life up until this point, that kind of outfit has meant one thing: Potential comrades. I love games, I love gaming. If it’s Friday night, I’m not out hanging at a club, I’m diving into a new game I downloaded on Steam. And I am blessed with the fact that my career is largely built upon that love, which I channeled into fiction so many years ago with “The Guild”. If there’s anything I’m proud of in this world, it’s the fact that I’ve had people come up to me on the street and at conventions over the years to tell me that they feel confident to call themselves a gamer because of my work, where before they were ashamed. Hearing that kind of stuff has kept me going, against the mainstream, against all odds.
So seeing another gamer on the street used to be an auto-smile opportunity, or an entry into a conversation starting with, “Hey, dude! I love that game too!” Me and that stranger automatically had something in common: A love for something unconventional. Outsiders in arms. We had an auto-stepping stone to hurtle over human-introduction-awkwardness, into talking about something we loved together. Instant connection!
But for the first time maybe in my life, on that Saturday afternoon, I walked towards that pair of gamers and I didn’t smile. I didn’t say hello. In fact, I crossed the street so I wouldn’t walk by them. Because after all the years of gamer love and inclusiveness, something had changed in me. A small voice of doubt in my brain now suspected that those guys and I might not be comrades after all. That they might not greet me with reflected friendliness, but contempt.
I went home and was totally, utterly depressed.
I have not said many public things about Gamer Gate. I have tried to leave it alone, aside from a few @ replies on Twitter that journalists have decided to use in their articles, siding me against the hashtag. Why have I remained mostly silent?
Self-protection and fear.
I have been through a lot in my years on the internet. I have encountered a small fraction of the attacks from people like the ones who currently represent the worst of this “movement”. In the past, I worked through it alone because I felt shining a light on their words gave them exactly what they wanted: Attention and credibility. To say that their attacks and contempt didn’t set me back creatively would be a lie, but overall I got through the twists and turns, emotionally battered, but alright. My philosophy has always been, “Exist and represent yourself the way you want to exist as a woman who loves games, not as a reflection of what other people think or want of you. You will change minds by BEING. Show, don’t tell.” The attacks I experienced over the years were NOTHING compared to people who are the victims of these attacks now, but I still thought early on during the Gamer Gate phenomenon, “These trolls will dissipate into the night like they always do, it will be fine.”
But they have not dissipated. And because of the frightening emotions and actions attached to what has happened over the last month, the events are sure to have a long-lasting affect on gaming as a culture. The fact that it has affected me, to the point where I decided to cross the street last weekend away from those gamers, was heartbreaking. Because I realized my silence on the issue was not motivated by some grand strategy, but out of fear that the issue has created about speaking out.
I have been terrified of inviting a deluge of abusive and condescending tweets into my timeline. I did one simple @ reply to one of the main victims several weeks back, and got a flood of things I simply couldn’t stand to read directed at me. I had to log offline for a few days until it went away. I have tried to retweet a few of the articles I’ve seen dissecting the issue in support, but personally I am terrified to be doxxed for even typing the words “Gamer Gate”. I have had stalkers and restraining orders issued in the past, I have had people show up on my doorstep when my personal information was HARD to get. To have my location revealed to the world would give a entry point for any mentally ill person who has fixated on me, and allow them to show up and make good on the kind of threats I’ve received that make me paranoid to walk around a convention alone. I haven’t been able to stomach the risk of being afraid to get out of my car in my own driveway because I’ve expressed an opinion that someone on the internet didn’t agree with.
HOW SICK IS THAT?
I have allowed a handful of anonymous people censor me. They have forced me, out of fear, into seeing myself a potential victim.
And that makes me loathe not THEM, but MYSELF.
So I write this to urge any person, male or female, who now has the impulse to do what I did, to walk away from something they loved before, to NOT.
Don’t let other people drive you away from gaming.
Games are beautiful, they are creative, they are worlds to immerse yourself in. They are art. And they are worth fighting for, even if the atmosphere is ugly right now. A small minority are putting up barbed wire walls between us who love games. And that is sad. Because odds are 99% certain that those guys on the street who I avoided would have been awesome to talk to. I realize that letting the actions of a few hateful people influence my behavior is the absolutely worst thing I could do in life. And not an example I want to set, ever.
So to myself and to everyone else who operates out of love not vengeance: Don’t abandon games. Don’t cross the street. Gaming needs you. To create, to play, to connect.
To represent.
I know this entry will probably draw contempt from people in the Gamer Gate movement. Something to scorn, something to rile them up against me and everything I’ve ever made. Especially, and most hurtfully, to mock my vulnerability. I just have one thing to say to you who do that: I’m genuinely sorry you are so angry.
I have lived a large part of my life ruled by negative emotions, mainly fear and anxiety. From my experience of working through those issues, I have this to say: Steeping yourself in the emotions that you’re surrounding yourself with, of hatred and bile and contempt, is ultimately not destructive to others like you want it to be. It’s destructive to yourself.
I know it feels good to belong to a group, to feel righteous in belonging to a cause, but causing fear and pushing people away from gaming is not the way to go about doing it. Think through the repercussions of your actions and the people you are aligning yourself with. And think honestly about whether your actions are genuinely going to change gaming life for the better. Or whether they’re just going to make someone cross the street away from you. And away from something, ironically, that we both love. " |
10/23/2014 12:08:34 AM |
wolfpack2105 All American 12428 Posts user info edit post |
I'm not gonna read about all this stupidity. Instead, i'll post a picture of my favorite female videogamer:
10/23/2014 12:31:17 AM |
moron All American 34142 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "1) Feminist critic Anita Sarkeesian has made a series of videos called "Tropes vs. Women" |
Wait, is this how it all started? She made these videos, and people started freaking out? When does Zoe come into the timeline?
Also, if the "True" gamergate is a gripe about ethics in journalism, is there a list of journalists who have acted unethical, and links to the incidents?
Is there a denial that sexism is prevalent in games? It SEEMS like gamergaters acknowledge this, but believe it's "okay" since that's how it's always been, and it's censorship to call this out (which is the dumbest argument ever).10/23/2014 2:07:42 AM |
ViolentMAW All American 4127 Posts user info edit post |
I've watched 4-5 of her videos now and I must say that I'm very impressed with her research. She must have had some help finding all these examples unless she played more games than I did in high school and college which is impossible. When it all comes down to it this is some of the most intelligent social criticism of gaming I've ever seen.
Also I'd disagree that it is a great time for games because ...
Quote : | "Publishers are so risk averse, most of the big players aren't willing to risk a revenue loss to speak out against discriminatory behavior." |
The quality of social gaming has increased but I'd argue that this trend has led to rampant homogeneity. All the dudes I work with simply point, shoot, and loot. It's brainless. I'd rather PLAY The Last of Us but games like Gone Home will be more memorable to me because they do something different. It's ironic that the The Left Behind DLC for The Last of US essentially ripped off the love story in Gone Home (although it was still great). I've spent the last generation becoming more of a movie buff. I remember popping in MGS4 and thinking the next few years were gonna be great. Honestly, I wouldn't call any game from last gen essential except for maybe Demon's Souls, Super Mario Galaxy 2, Brothers, or Vanquish. But that's my opinion.10/23/2014 10:45:39 AM |
Lokken All American 13361 Posts user info edit post |
^ you're not paying attention to games 10/23/2014 11:17:41 AM |
ViolentMAW All American 4127 Posts user info edit post |
So if I play games every day and read about them every day ... then ....
I will say that I'm excited about the indie realm. I need to play The Stanley Parable and keep up with the releases a little better.
[Edited on October 23, 2014 at 11:43 AM. Reason : .] 10/23/2014 11:33:52 AM |
Fry The Stubby 7784 Posts user info edit post |
Quote : | "All the dudes I work with simply point, shoot, and loot. It's brainless. " |
For many people, that's all they want video games to be. They don't have to be finely tuned works that have some profound social impact (they can, and more power to any dev/pub that makes them).
Quote : | "But for the first time maybe in my life, on that Saturday afternoon, I walked towards that pair of gamers and I didn’t smile. I didn’t say hello. In fact, I crossed the street so I wouldn’t walk by them. Because after all the years of gamer love and inclusiveness, something had changed in me. A small voice of doubt in my brain now suspected that those guys and I might not be comrades after all. That they might not greet me with reflected friendliness, but contempt. " |
Dear Felicia: check a mirror. You're making an assumption about those gamers base on their appearance alone. Does she think her actions will help the gaming community, by intentionally avoiding people that are just as likely to be fans as they are to be the horrible people she assumes they are? That's just hypocritical.
[Edited on October 23, 2014 at 11:56 AM. Reason : I skimmed, an owe her an apology.]10/23/2014 11:42:42 AM |